I pull the hair out of my eyes
as I sit up in bed, the sheets full of sand,
emptying of me. The bus
comes later every day; I contemplate
not one but two prework smokes
but there's no time. My chest
is developing a hole anyway.
Yesterday, I shaved. The usual business
of turning into sandpaper has already begun,
a kind of madness. The hairs grow.
I cut them, the dark brown and red ones, and rinse the sink.
Sometimes the hole seems to be
growing into a kind of forever.
I watch the summer grass dying. I miss you.
And then bus comes, the scenery moves:
I imagine the touch of my lips to your ear
in lamplight, feeling the music of your mouth,
soothingly, -- and 22nd street rolls by.